Monday 26 February 2007

weigh in ...

So, I got on the scales at the gym this morning and lost 1 kg!!!

Well, I wasn't expecting much more. But the good news (and what stopped me from wanting to crawl into a hole with 10kg of chocloate and hide there for a week) was that I took my measurements this morning and have lost a total combined of 17.1cm from my bust, arm, waist, hips and thighs!!!!

I was pretty happy with that!!

Just goes to show that weight isn't always the best indicator. Also discovered on Sunday morning that a skirt I haven't been able to wear for a little while because it was just a wee bit too tight, fit me!!! So good things are obviously happening ...

Something made my day today. A few days ago I posted a thread on coolrunnings asking about running shorts for women and if there were any that didn't ride up your crotch and bum when you run. Short answer was no and most people said they resort to bike shorts. I got a message from one girl who said she had a size 14 Nike running skirt and would I like it, she refused any money, even for postage. Well, I received it today and it's in perfect condition - looks brand new, and will be perfect - it's shorter than I'm used to, but what the heck. I was just impressed at the kindness and generosity of this stranger!

It's currently 5 to midnight - I can't sleep - partly becasue my legs ache - thanks Drew - and partly because my mind is just buzzing and I can't seem to switch off. I have a lot on over the next couple of days and this always happens to me when there's a lot on my plate.

PT was good today - but my body is sore and aching - see what happens when you miss a week!! Am supposed to run tomorrow, but I'm a bit stressed out about gettinng everything done this week, and I'll be tired and even more sore in the morning, so I'm going to give it a miss. Shame, i wanted to try out my new skirt!!

Friday 23 February 2007

I wasn't going to go to the gym this morning. I got a nasty email from someone this morning and it quite upset me and I just felt like blowing the whole day off to go shopping or something. Anyway, I ended up going to the gym, more by default and the fact I didn't leave myself enough time to get ready for anything else really. Had box class and took out my frustrations on the bags instead. Had a really good workout - my arms were killing me. Anyway, so a small success for the day.

Wednesday 21 February 2007

dreading Monday

I am absolutely totally dreading Monday. I have my weigh in with Drew and I know I'm not going to make the 3kg loss, even with the extra week with Drew being away. I'll be lucky if I make 1kg ... I'm such a retard. I don't know why I eat like I do. I must say, it's much harder with kids than it was before kids to watch what I'm eating. But that shouldn't be an excuse really. It's like I'm sabotaging myself on purpose. Setting myself up to fail. I'm so dissapointed in myself that I'm not going to make that goal on Monday - and it wasn't as if it was unattainable - 3kg in 4 weeks - anyone can do that. I thought when Drew told me HE was going to weigh me that it would be all the motivation I would need to keep up the good work, but instead I've been on a 4 week crash course. It's goingto be absoultely and utterly humiliating to get on those scales in front of him on Monday. The only redeeming feature is that I have now lost 11 cm total from my measurements.

So this morning, being Wednesday, was my spin class. As it was a 'non-kindy' day for Max so I went to the gym a half hour early - did another 20 minute run on the treadmill. It's so much easier without hills!!!! Then did spin class ... I can't believe that this is a class I actually look forward to now - I never thought I'd see that day. Tried to push myself a bit today and when I took my heart rate at the end of the class it was at 170!! Still want that F11 Polar ... probably will never get it, it's so expensive.

Wallow in self pity is over for the day.

Monday 19 February 2007

no weigh in today

so, no weigh in today - didn't even bother getting on the scales - I have 1 more week before the weigh in at the gym, that time of the month, so I know I will be retaining fluid blah blah blah...

Went to the gym this morning - Drew's on holiday's - so I just did some weights and cardio and a few of the routines we do in my PT which I can do without having someone there to help. Did some cardio at the end and then came home. Felt a bit flat today.

Went out for a run on Sunday morning - measured it in the car after and Iran for 4 ks!!!! And most of it was actually running, I hardly walked at all. Pretty pleased with that effort. Will try and get out for another run tomorrow morning. Ankles and legs are feeling a bit tired though. My ankle with the pins and plates in from my iceskating accident years ago is playing up a bit and is very sore.

I've decided in the lead up for running the B2B I'm going to run the 10k leg of the Gold Coast Marathon - 1st weekend in July. Given that I ran 4ks on Sunday I think that's a reasonable goal - then gives me another month to train for the 12k B2B ... The GCM is supposedly a fast flat course. Which is nice - all the running I do around here is hilly!!

I bought some propper Brooks running shorts on the weekend in an attempt to find something to wear that doesn't constantly ride up my crotch when I run. $30 and they're very nice, but they still ride up ... not happy. I'll have to resort to bike pants soon, it's driving me nuts.

I think I'm going to resort back to recording my food in WW points ... I've tried the calorie counting thing, but I'm too lazy to learn the calorie content of foods... I know, I know, I should just do it ... but right now I think I'd rather just record points and then go from there. Maybe.

Last week after Spin class, Wes was trying to sell us all on the protien/electrolyte powders they sell at the gym... I jokingly said if he gave us a taste test we might be more likely to buy one ... he said he'd bring some this week. I hope so, might be something I'd consider if I think I could stomach the taste!

I'm still feeling a little frustrated re the whole food thing. I really am not eating that badly and I'm just not seeing any results. I'm starting to wonder if the whole PCOS thing is having an effect on my metabolism and weightloss... I've been thinking of making a Dr appointment to discuss ... hard to find a Dr who will give serious thought to this issue. Mostly they just want to put you on the pill to control the PCOS...

That's all for today.

Friday 16 February 2007

Positive Thinking

So, this morning at the gym I had a bit of a lightbulb moment ...

It's really easy for me to get depressed and frustrated at myself and my progress. But I need to remember all the good things I have achieved since I started going to the gym.

  • When I first went to the gym, I was so lazy I would get bored of doing cardio after 20 minutes and most days would give up after about 25 minutes and stretch and go home. Now I can do an hour solid of cardio, love it and work really hard at it.
  • When I first started at the gym I couldn't run for 2 minutes non-stop without getting a stitch or feeling totally puffed. Today I ran at 9.5km/h for 20 MINUTES ... non-stop. And I only stopped becuase I had box class to go to - I had it in me to keep going. I was sooooooo happy about that!!! I've been looking at week5 of the C2 5k and wondering how on earth was I possibly going to run for 20 minutes ... well, I did it.
  • When I first started box calsses I could barely hit the speedball, now I can hit it as hard and as fast as anyone else.
  • Could hardly manage my starjumps and sprint combos, now I can do 10 sets only feeling buggered for the last 2!
  • I can leg press 170kg on the assisted weights and 140kg on the free weights
  • I can bench press 30kg
  • I can do a situps - it aint pretty and Drew has to stand on my feet - but I can do full range situps.
  • I can bicep curl 27.5 kg
  • things that Drew used to do with me which were really challenging, I'm finding much easier.
  • I know my aerobic fitness has increased so much - my recovery is better, my breathing is better.
  • My core is stronger - I can hold prone position for 3 times the length I was able to when I firts started at the gym.
  • I can 'switch on' my abs and feel that I'm doing it (hey, that must mean I have some abs now!!!)
  • I can get through a 1 hr spin class and feel invigorated and alive when it's finished, rather than feeling half dead and unable to walk straight!!!
  • My co-ordination has improved
  • My energy levels have improved

Anyway, you get the picture. So I just wanted today to remain positive. I am going to be good today, and the day after and the day after and the day after and the day after ...

Drew is away for a week, so no PT on Monday, but he's left me some instructions of things to do by myself.

Feeling positive ...

Thursday 15 February 2007

frustration

Sometimes I can't believe how freakin stupid I am.

This whole week I've been eating crap. I don't know why I do it to myself. I was so happy on Monday when I took my measurements etc, and I go and ruin it all ...

I have weigh in with Drew in a little more than a week and I'm supposed to have lost 3kgs ... I don't think that's going to happen ...

This whole week's been total crap.

Exercise wise it's been pretty average. Got to the end of my PT on Monday and they came and told me I had to come and get Maeve because she'd been screaming for the entire time ... sheesh, they could have come and got me earlier and rescheduled the PT ... so didn't get to do the cardio after. Tuesday I wanted to go for a run in the morning, but someone wouldn't get out of bed to look after the kids ... that really pissed me off. Sure, I could have just gone, but I didn't want to leave the kids screaming and have to come back and deal with that and the clinginess for the rest of the day. I could have/should have gone to the gym Tuesday morning ... Wednesday I did spin - the only decent class this week so far. Today I ahd an osteo appointment (my neck is much better -although feeling a bit sore tonight probably from the manipulations today). Tomorrow is Box ... Will put in a full extra 1/2 hour after/before the calss tomorrow.

I'm so frustrated with myself.

Monday 12 February 2007

naughty naughty student

I'm baaad. I promised Drew I wasn't going to weigh until the 26th, and weigh at the gym ... buuuut, I couldn't help myself this morning. Some of my shorts have been feeling a bit looser, so I thought I'd just jump on the scales and have a quick look .... 77.5!!!!!!! I was pretty happy - that's a kilo down!!! YAY!

BUT ... then I measured myself, thighs, hips, arms, waist ... I've lost a combined total of 9cm off those areas!! Whoo hoo!!

Pretty happy about it, especially as I had a really crappy week last week, now just have to keep being good - too many carbs today ... white bread is the devil.

Hoping to get out for a run tomorrow - please don't be raining in the morning ...

Tuesday 6 February 2007

erghhh

A was at the cricket tonight, took the kids to maccas for dinner - should have eaten before we went cos I got there and was starving ... now I feel ill. I haven't had it for ages and I just feel bloated and horrid. To make matters worse, I was thinking on the way home I would just have to work extra hard during spin to burn it all off ... got a call from the osteo - she can see me tomorrow at 10 am ... right in the middle of spin class ... so no spin ... naughty naughty sarah.

Monday 5 February 2007

Weigh in #5

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insert whatever expletive you like up there - the stonger the better.

Only a 300g loss this morning. I know it better than nothing, but it may as well be nothing. I'm really frustrated over this. I was sure I'd see a reflection on the scales this week.

Anyway, had my PT today and Drew rightly told me off. Said he doesn't want me to weigh myself AT ALL for the next 3 weeks. So I promised i wouldn't (going to have to get A to hide the scales!!!!!!!)

I always feel a bit better after my PT, because it reminds me of how far I've come in overall fitness and strength - which is what this is all about. I just have to keep reminding myself.

went for another run on Sunday morning - am really loving those podcasts - onto week 4 tomorrow. Going to try and get up at 6am and go out for a bit longer.

My neck has been sore since Wednesday, I think I hurt it in my spin class ... so I'm hoping to have it seen on Thursday by the osteopath ... went to a physio today which was a complete waste of time.

anyway, gotta run ... vegies to cut up for dinner.

Saturday 3 February 2007

run like the wind

I have a new best friend ... Robert Ulrey ... he's a 43 year old californian who has made podcasts to help those who want to run the couch to 5k program. His podcasts can be found her http://www.podcasts.ullreys.net/ and the running program is found here: http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml

I've been meaning to follow the program to get me ready to be able to run the bridge to brisbane in August, but was struggling with the knowing when to run/when to walk - I don't have a wrist stopwatch, etc etc ...

So I downloaded Robert's week 3 podcast this morning and off I went!!!! It made it so much easier having someone tell me what to do - I was like having a personl trainer along side me running. And week 3 wasn't all that tough. Probably less runing in a stretch than what I have been doing, but I don't want to get ahead of myself. I'll do 1 or 2 more days of week 3 and then move onto week 4 which will be a little more challenging.

Anyway, I was feeling pretty excited about the whole thing and just wanted to share it ...

Will probably head out for a run againn tomorrow morning.

Thursday 1 February 2007

mid week check in - is anyone out there?

I just wonder if there's anyone out there? I mean, I don't write this for anyone but myself - I thought it would be a great record to have when it's all done and dusted and I'm skinny and have a whole new wardrobe ... but I was just wondering if anyone ever reads this? Apart from Lisa!!!

I'm feeling really good about this week. I think I'm pretty certain that I've lost a good number this week (as long as I can stay good over the weekend!!) . I've worked really hard at the gym this week, went for a run on Tuesday night, and went indoor rock climbing last night. Something is happening to me, it's very strange. I actually enjoy it all, I enjoy going to the gym, I like going out for a run, I like being active and having energy. It's definately changed from something I feel like I 'have' to do, to something I want to do. That in itself makes me happy.

Had spin class on Wednesday night and really enjoyed the class!!!!!!!! I never thought I'd be able to say that!! I used to loathe that class ... so I'm not sure what's going on, but whatever it is, it's all good.

Looking forward to Box tomorrow - missed out last week because of Australia Day.

I'm almost anxious for weigh in day because I want to see the result ...