Weigh in #4

Is it number 4 already????

Only 200g again this week ... but I know I wasn't the best with my food, so what more can I expect?

Had my PT yesterday, worked hard as usual. Had a bit of discussion with Drew about the whole weight thing, I was feeling a bit flat after only losing 200g for the week. He pointed out my other improvements with the incereases in weights, strength and cardio fitness. Made me feel a bit better.

after the PT I was doing my 30min of cardio and Drew came up to me and told me before I left that he wanted to weigh me on the gym scales!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, it's a good thing, because it will keep me more motivated and SCARED!!! Slightly humiliating to get on the scales there, but I know it can only get better ... right?!!! Anyway, weighed in at 79, with my shoes, clothes and 750ml of water on board, so no nasty suprises, like my home scales being seriously wrong!!!

So the goal is 3kg before he next weighs me in 3 weeks ... so I'm going to really have to watch what I eat.

Didn't get out for my run this morning - I had a horrible nights sleep and just couldn't get up at 6am ... the kids slept in a bit, which didn't help getting out of bed early.

Spin class tomorrow, weights and cardio on Thursday and Box on Friday - will aim to get out for a run on Saturday and sunday mornings. Going rock climbing on Wednesday night, that should be interesting and fun. I'll be eager to see how well I do ...

weigh in tomorrow

I'm not expecting to lose anything. I won't be suprised if I gain a little ... I worked pretty hard this week with exercise, but it wasn't enough.

I have a theory.

I've been going to the gym for several months (about 6 I think), and I've been going at least 3x a week, unless I was sick. But the whole time I haven't been 'dieting' or eating that well. I haven't been that bad either though. So I have a theory that my body is used to the exercise and I'm going to have to work 10x harder to actually drop a significant amount of weight, as well as eating next to nothing.

I'm feeling pretty jaded about the whole thing at the moment. This is why you shouldnl't weigh yourself mid week ...

Anyway, PT tomorrow with Drew and will have a chat to him about my little theory!!! I'm sure he'll think I'm nuts.

Next week I'm going to try and be extra good with the food ... I'm sure it will make a difference. I've probably had one too many 'treats' this week.

Really want to get a HRM to be able to measure the amount of calories I'm burning at the gym.

Didn't go for my run this morning. Kids slept in until 7am!!!! that was nice! It's far too hot to go now. I think I'll call it a week and start fresh on Monday.

exercise good - food pffft!

Well, I feel like I've been slogging my guts out at the gym, in a good sense. Went to my Spin class on Wed after doing 20 min of cardio before hand and found the spin class not too bad this time. I'm working really hard, feeling like I'm getting fitter and stronger - I can notice it, even over a period of a week. Jogging on my 'days off' ... but I go and sabotage my good work with bad eating. Nothing major, not like I'm going on big binges and eating whole tubs of ice-cream, packets of biscuits, half a dozen donuts (yep, I've done all those things in the past), but just little things, like eating a giant freddo today ... :(

I don't know why I do it. After all the hard work I do ...

My diet is better than it was, I suppose that's a plus, but there's still too much percentage of it that is coming from fats and carbs. I really need to pull my socks up. Next week that's going to be my goal - forget the water drinking - I manage that fine - I need to seriously look at my diet and reasses my eating.

I'm not expecting a loss this week ... again.

Congratulations to Lisa for your 1.1 loss this week - good on you. The girls from 3AS have started filling in their details on our spreadsheet - hope to see some good progress there.

Anyway, must stay positive. We have a BBQ at some friend's place tomorrow afternoon - will have to resist the temptaion of desserts and fattening food, should be plenty of good options though.

I'm feeling great about the gym work and the exercise - I know I've liften my game - I just need to get my butt into gear and eat better ... Speaking of butt's - off to watch Federer finish kicking Roddick's.

Weigh in #3

Ok, so a not so great week - scales said 78.8 this week - 200g is better than nothing, and a bit of a reality check and kick up the butt for having such a bad food week.

So I managed to record all my food and exercise in my diary for yesterday and resisted the temptaion to jump on the scales this morning. 1 day down, 6 to go. Baby steps.

Had my PT yesterday. Drew made me work really hard. At one point I felt like I was going to vomit. He set up a circcut for me - went something like this:

Bench press
Bench step ups with weights
Walking lunges with weights
Lat pull downs
tricep extensions
crunches

And then it started all over again, with the weights getting heavier as we went. Going from one to the other without stopping - did the whole thing 3 times over. By the last set of crunches I was sooooooo spent. Then he did a bit of stretching and I had to go and do 30 minutes of cardio after .... I so did not want to go and do that cardio work!!!!! But I did! A few weeks ago I wouldn't have - I would have just gone home. Drew holds me pretty accountable, so that's good.

Told him about my plan to run the Bridge to Brisbane and he was really supportive and encouraging, and thought it was a really good goal to have.

Went for another run this morning. Timed myself this time - thought I would do the same route as Sunday, except backwards, but I tookk a wrong turn towards the end and ended up coming home a different way! Oh well. Ran for 20 minutes (21.35 to be exact). Stopped to walk 2 or 3 times. It's so hilly around here. But I was pretty good, I'd be running and think to myself "I've had enough" but made myself run to the next street, or post box, or top of the hill. I was thinking to myself as I was running that I have a lot more determination and belief in myself when it comes to what I'm capable of physically. Before I started at the gym I would never have thought I could jog for 5 minutes, let alone 20!! So I'll do the same run on Saturday or sunday and see if I can get under 21 minutes ... little steps at a time. When I go out today in the car I'm going to measure my route too.

Anyway, the kids need breakfast and I need a shower. It's going to be a stinker today.

I ran!!!

Well, I don't know what has possessed me ...

I had been pondering over the last couple of days that I should be trying to change my lifestyle a little more. That this 'journey' is about more than just losing weight, it's about being healthier and doing things I enjoy and challenging myself.

So I found my way to this web site called 'cool runnings' - basically a website and forums all about running. It was amazing, the way people talked about running, how much they loved it etc ... Late last year one of the instructors at the gym was talking in our spin class about how she was training with a friend to run the Bridge to Brisbane - a 12k run across the gateway bridge and around to new farm (check out their web site - www.bridgetobrisbane.com.au ).

Anyway, I was thinking to myself - could I do that??? So I've decided to give it a go. This morning I went for a run ... me, running!!! It's the first time I've really gone for a dedicated run outdoors - I run on the treadmill at the gym, but treadmill is very different from the pavement, so I discovered this morning!!!

I really enjoyed it. The kids woke us up at 6am, so I had plenty of time, pulled on my gym shoes and clothes and just went, by myself (bliss), just me and my iPod. It was really peaceful, hardly anyone about and still quite cool. I'm hoping to fit in 3 runs a week, slowly building up the time I can run for, and then once I have the time down, the distance and speed, but I'm not going to worry too much about that right now. I'm just stoked that I got out there and did it!

I'm not sure how far I ran, but I was out for just over 20 minutes I think.

Best part is, when Drew asks me in the morning if I got in any extra walks/exercise over the weekend, which he always does, then I be able to say YES!!! That will be great. Also hope to be able to report a bit of a loss to him tomorrow, jumped on the scales after my run (naughty naughty) and was hovering around the 78 mark, which if it's like that tomorrow, will mean another kilo down, despite my downfalls this week.

Starting a 12 week challenge/blitz with some girls over at the 3 Angels Scrapping site tomorrow - it'll be great to have some others to help encourage/motivate ...

PT tomorrow morning, then some cardio work. I need to go to bed so I'm not too tired and can work hard! I only popped in here to write a quick entry, and I seem to have managed to write an essay ...

update

Before I type I must remove the plate containing the crumbs of the white roll I just devoured. oh dear. Why do we love white bread so much? What is it about a nice fresh white bread roll that makes it so much more attractive and tasty than a seedy or wholemeal roll? Not fair really.



Had my box calss this morning and did 15 minutes of cardio before hand. The numbers for the Friday morning box class have been steadily getting smaller and smaller since before Christmas. The gym tends not to run the class unless there are 4 people (we had 3 today and Drew ran the calss - I think he enjoys it, gets him out of other duties upstairs in the gym!) But he mentioned if the numbers didn't pick up the gym may cancel the class. I'd be so disspointed if that happened. Hopefully once school goes back some of the old regulars will come back to the class ... here's hoping. They run box classes on other mornings (like 6:30am) and on some evenings, but those times are too hard for me to get to with the kids...



Felt really energised coming home from the gym today. Got in the car at the gym and this song was on the radio. I turned it up and Max was dancing around in the back seat. A wondered why I was in such a good mood when I got home!!!!



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cWwV9rU6XZI

Bad week

I've had a crap week this week food wise.

I don't know why. I have no excuse. I'm craving chocolate and sugar.

I didn't go to the gym yesterday becasue my back was still sore. So I'm down a gym session and up a million calories. *insert hysterical crying smiley here*!!

Just 'sneaking' the odd thing here and there, it all adds up. I set a goal with Drew on Monday that I would lose .5 a week ... so I'm going to be eating lettuce all weekend.

So I don't expect to lose much/any at all this week. Plus I think it's that time of the month. So all in all, it sucks.

Went to the gym today - still a few twinges in my back, so I wasn't sure how I'd go, but everything was good.

Did 1000m on the rower in 5 min, by the end of the 5 min I was buggered!! Next time I'll do 6 minutes at that speed and then keep building up a minute at a time.

Last night I sat down and wrote out a few goals. Here are the first few that I want to work on between now and 23rd Jan ...

• weigh myself ONLY once a week (not every day or every second day!!) Once a week is enough for those nasty scales
• Keep my food and exercise diary - write down EVERYTHING I eat, even if it's bad - it'll give me a reality check.

Then for the week after that my goal is to do those 2, plus these 2 ...

• drink at least 6 x 250ml every day
• Learn the calorie count of foods I eat regularly.

I think that'll do for now. Don't want to overdo it!

Weigh In #2

.... 1 kilo loss!!! YAY!!!

Pretty happy about that.

I think I hurt my back today ... putting the pram in the car, just twisted it the wrong way. It hurts. Not good. I also think I have a hole in one of my teeth and need to see a dentist - I'm absolutely terrified of the dentist. I'm dreading it.

More 'calorie king university' ... goals

"Before you progress with setting goals, we recommend that you take a few moments to note your responses to the following questions in your blog. They will help you to formulate your goals. "

What does losing weight mean to me? - it means that I will have achieved something which I've previously found very difficult, that I can do it, that I will be healthy, more comfortable and I will feel better about myself.

What are the rewards? - I will feel good and happy and attractive

What will gaining or not losing weight mean to me? - on a week to week basis I can accept that there may be weeks where I will not lose weight, muscle weighs more than fat will be my mantra! But overall, if I fail at this I think I'll be devastated.

What are the consequences? - of failing? I'll probably get fatter, I'll dislike myself more, I will be ashamed and embarrassed.

Monday

My PT today was really good. Hard, but good! I spent 15 min on the treadmill before hand walking at 6.5 k/h and had some really great music on the iPod while I was doing that - I'm always amazed at the difference music can make. It was the kind of music I just wanted to sing out loud to, and if i'd been in the privacy of my own home, I would have!

So while I was listening to that I was feeling really good about how I'm going these couple of weeks and went into the PT feeling really positive and energised. Hopefully I won't be as sore tommorrow as I was last week after my PT.

Had a friend over for morning tea/lunch today ... she wanted to bring food, but I said no, because at least then I would have some control over what was on the table. Mostly good stuff. It's all I've eaten all day since breakfast, no other snacking in between, so I don't feel too bad. A bit of calorie amnesia though when I'm trying to remeber exactly what went in my mouth. This week I really want to try and make a huge effort to record all I eat over at CK. They have great resources and you can record everything you eat, it calculates your calorie intake and gives you a % breakdown of carbs, proteins, dairy, etc, and also works out how many calories you burn from your exercise. I'm finding it a lot more informative and educational that I ever did with WW. And hopefully found a couple more people fro mthe forums over there to help me stay on track and motivated.

Day off from the gym tomorrow ... but it's weigh in day too - so I'll check back in in the morning and see how I went. Ate too much on the weekend, so I'm hoping I've kept that 1kg loss from mid week ...

calorieKing

ok, so I'm doing this for the CalorieKing 'university'

They have these categories of reasons people want to lose weight and you're supposed to write a bit about each category ...

Health - this is important to me because I was borderline GDB with Maeve and I don't want to develop health problems because of this, also with my PCOS I know I'm at increased risk of diabetes. I want to be around and active to see my grandchildren.

Appearance, Self Confidence & Self-esteem - I'm grouping these because for me they're all linked. Whilst my appearance is important to me and I do care what others think of me, it's not the be all and end all. I know by looking better I'll feel more self-confident and have higher self esteem. I'll feel more attractive and more loveable, even though I know I'm loved anyway.

Energy - this is really important to me. I want to have the desire and energy to go outside and play with the kids and to get all the things done I want to do in a day/week etc ...

Self-control - I love the feeling of empowerment I get when I know I've eaten well for a week and will have a good result on the scales because of it. The self control to stay at the gym for that extra 15 minutes ...

Ability to engage in more physical activities - see 'energy'. The feeling of being more confident with sports is important to me too - my entire life I've felt out of place on the sports field.

Social acceptance - I feel like I'm at a point where I'm losing weight for me, not for anyone else. So I don't feel that this is too important to me. Sure, it's a little important, everyone wants to be accepted, but it's not the reason I'm losing weight.

Special occasion - I don't have a special occasion coming up that I'm working for, although I'd like to turn 31 and not be fat, I'd like to be eager to be in the family Christmas photos this year. I'd also like to be confident that I can look nice going to any wedding/party or special occasion

Some extra info: calories burned per hour based on my height, weight and age
Elliptical Trainer 508
Rower, Stationary 4 kph 182
Rower, Stationary 7.5 kph 290
Rower, Stationary 11 kph 472
Rower, Stationary 15 kph 581
Spinning 726
Cleaning House 218
Gardening 290
Jogging 5 kph 240
Jogging 5.5 kph 276
Jogging 6 kph 290
Jogging 6.5 kph 363
Jogging 7 kph 436
Jogging 7.5 kph 566
Jogging 8 kph 581
Jogging 8.5 kph 622
Boxing 653
Free Weights, light 218
Free Weights, vigorous 436
machine, light 218
machine, vigorous 436
Walking, Treadmill / Uphill 1.5 kph 145
Walking, Treadmill / Uphill 2 kph 182
Walking, Treadmill / Uphill 2.5 kph 218
Walking, Treadmill / Uphill 3 kph 240
Walking, Treadmill / Uphill 3.5 kph 276
Walking, Treadmill / Uphill 4 kph 363

I write too much ...

Anyway, went to the gym on Friday and did my 15 minutes cardio before my box class. Did the treadmill walking for 1min, running for 1 minute thing. Pretty good. Went to the room for my class and the instructor had gone home sick and the guy who runs/owns the gym had come in to take it, but there were only 2 of us who turned up for the class. The attendence at this class fluctuates and towards the end of last year there would be only 3 of us most Friday's. Anyway, they won't run a class unless there's at least 3 or 4 people to do the class so Wes suggested he take us through a cardio circut instead.

At first I was reluctant, probably only because I love the box class, but Wes showed me how to use the rower, which I've been avoiding the whole time I've been going to the gym because I didn't know how to use it. (Yes, I know I could have asked someone to show me, but I didn't!). It's one of the higher intensity cardio machine, full body workout, great for legs and arms, and I found it relatively easy to use. I'm going to aim to get my speed down to between 2min and 2.5min over a 500m distance. Yesterday I was at an average of 3min. So I ended up doing 15 min on the rower and a total of about 1hr 15min cardio all up, so that was a great workout.

I was starving all day on Friday. Don't know if it was the workout or what, but I just wanted to eat all day.

We went out to the movies on Friday night (eventful - you can read about it over on my other blog when I get around to it) and ended up having Baskin Robins after - have I said how much I LOVE ice cream? Naughty, I know, but we hardly go out and it was a bit of a special treat.

Got on the scales this morning and it's siting at 79 (and that was after breakfast - I normally never weigh myself unless it's first thing in the morning before I drink or eat anything and after a trip to the toilet!!!) - so if that keeps up I can expect a 1kg loss at least on Tuesday .... woo hoo!!

Check out the link to the CalorieKing on the sidebar - I think this is going to be a favourite favourite of mine! I have some questions about long low intensity exercise vs shorter high intensity ... getting conflicting advice at the gym and while I'm inclined to listen mostly to Drew, would like to do my own research ... perhaps this site can help, will bel ooking elsewhere too.

Oh, re the WW kick start plan - nope, I don't know anything either, was hoping someone else might - I don't want to go back to ww just to find out about it, it's their way of sucking you back in and giving them all your money - not that I think ww doesn't work - it does, I lost 13 kg with WW before Max was born, I just think I can do it on my own this time ...

Dinner's ready (must remind myself I don't need a huge bowl of spaghetti - 2 words - PORTION CONTROL!), enough babble ...

S

midweek update

I've been a bit naughty. I had ice cream last night - Arie was out and I was bored I suppose - stupid I know .... ah well.

Gym's been going well this week. I went to my Spin class on Wednesday and I was instantly reminded when the instructor started taking us through 'jumps' (which are when you stand in the pedals for a count of x and then still off the bike seat crouch down low into the bike for a count - not sure if I've explainned it well, but just know that this KILLS - the lactic acid burning feeling in your legs is crazy, I absolutely hate it!). I really wasn't in the mood as I was still feeling very sinusy (is that a word?!) and not 100%. But I didn't want to start making excuses for myself this early on.

Today was weights and some cardio. After my weights I did some time on the treadmill walking fast for a minute and then running for 2 minutes, power walking for 1, running for 2 - you get the picture. That was pretty good - made the time on the treadmill fo a bit quicker.

I'm still very sore today from my PT on Monday - I'm hoping that this is just because I haven't done much exercise over Christmas and that after next Monday I won't feel it as bad as this!

Anyway, not much to report. Box tomorrow, which is always fun, then I get the weekend off!

Weigh-In

800g loss this week - not too bad I suppose, especially considering what I ate over the weekend.

I'm sore and my body aches ... I love my PTs, but boy I hate the aches and pains afterwards!

A day off today - no gym. I think I overdid it a bit yesterday anyway, still feeling very clogged up and snotty.

We're having turkey tonight - A's mum brought us a left over Christmas turkey on the weekend - I had no room in the freezer so we had to defrost it and I'll have to roast it for tonight. Thinking I'll just do steamed vegies or a salad with it to save the kilojules from a roast ...

Hopefully this week I'll be able to stick to the diet a bit better a post a bigger loss next tuesday. Off to check on Dee and when her weigh in is ...

S

p.s - Dee or Lisa, what do you know about the WW 3 week kick start program?

So I spent the weekend in bed - well, almost all day sunday anyway. Woke up this morning feeling a little better - at least didn't have that foggy head feeling.

Debated with myself if I should go to my PT or not ... decided to go. I didn't want to be making excuses for myself this early on.

So I went and Drew did a few strength tests - 6 pushups (not full body, just on my knees) and 3 chin pull ups was all I could do - the phrase "90 pound weakling" came to mind several times when I was trying those) I wouldn't have minded a few more little things to be able to test myself against, but Drew keeps a record of every PT anyway, so will be able to see my improvement there as well.

After the session I felt like my legs were jelly. I was just hoping I would be able to walk down the stairs at the gym!!

Drew also did up a timetable for me with my gym sessions and he said to me "these days are non-negotiable"!!! He also said that because of the level of activity I'll need more carbs than the CSIRO plan will allow and to find a better balance with the protien and carbs. That's probably easy!!!

Weigh in tomorrow - me and my bathroom scales and mirror!!! I'll post my results. Not expecting great things because we ended up eating spag bol on Sat night because I was not feeling well, and then to mum and dad's for dinner on Sunday night - Dad did his usual trick of putting out enough food to feed the 5000. I didn't eat much because I wasn't well, but still ... so we'll see what tomorrow holds.

S

Sick

great. I'm sick. Felt it coming on lasst night, but have woken this morning with a sore throat, blocked sinuses, burning eyes ... and it's only 6:30am.

This sucks. It better be gone by monday for my PT.

Boxacise yesterday was great, but boy am I feeling it after not doing anything for 2 weeks over Christmas.

I don't normally like cottage cheese, but mum told me to pick up a flavoured one. I got a low fat one with chives or something, and had some with a stick of celery yesterday when I got home from the gym - it was pretty good. Normally I really crave something to eat when I get home from the gym and this was a much better option than what I would normally eat.

It's good to be back into a normal routine with the gym etc.

Arie went to the 20/20 cricket game last night so I got a DVD out - was a bit sad watching a DVD without nibbles!!!

Totally off topic - got the final of the quotes for the blinds in the bedrooms yesterday - thankgoodness, I was so over staying home all day waiting for ppl to turn up to do measure and quotes - so today we'll pick the 3 best ones and take A to the showrooms to see the materials I've picked, hopefully make a final decesion and then we'll have blinds in a couple of week. Maybe then the kids will sleep in a bit more instead of getting up at the crack of dawn. I've been putting them to bed at 6pm every night because it seems to make no difference to the time they wake up and the extra hour of sleep makes for a much happier m&m in the morning.

Off to try and find some codral or sinutab or something ...

S

Tagged ...

I've been tagged by Dee ... Probably the only person apart from Lisa who's reading this!!!

so here goes:

A - Available/Single? Married
B- Best Friend? ahhh gee, umm I'd probably have to say Arie
C- Cake or Pie? Caaaaake
D - Drink Of Choice? Ginger Beer - Bundaberg
E - Essential Item You Use Everyday? computer
F - Favorite Colour? I don't think I have one
G - Gummy Bears Or Worms? don't like either of them
H - Home or Homesick? home, but if someone gave me an all expense paid trip 'round the world I wouldn't complain about being homesick
I - Indulgence? Baskin Robins Ice Cream
J - January Or February? This year it has to be Feb - Max starts kindy on the 1/2/07!!!
K - Kids & Their Names? Max - 4 in March, Maeve - 2 in August
L - Life Is Incomplete Without? my family
M - Marriage date? 1/7/99 - it was easy for our tax return that first year!! 8 years in 2007 - where does time go?
N - Number Of Siblings? 4 ... I have 3 sisters and 1 brother - I'm 2nd oldest
O - Oranges Or Apples? If I had to have one I'd choose an apple, would rather another fruit though
P - Phobias/Fears? I hate spiders, cockaroaches, wasps, snakes ... the usual
Q - Favorite Quote? I can't think off the top of my head - might have to come back to this one
R - Real Hair Color? Brown
S - Season? When we lived in Melbourne I LOVED autum - the colours and the trees are beautiful. But I love spring too. Winter in Brisbane is pretty great. Oh, I have to pick just one?!!!
T - Tag 3 or 4 people? mmmmm, Lisa, you've gotta start a blog, I don't think anyone else reads this - any takers??!!!!
U - Unknown Fact About Me? I'm not sure - I sucked my thumb until I was about 12!!
V - Vegetable you don’t like? mushrooms
W - Worst Habit? I'm a control freak - it's very hard for me to sit back and observe
X - X-rays You’ve Had? does this include ultrasounds? Not sure - ankle (broken), back, ultrasounds - gall bladder, breast, pregnancy, trans-vaginal (oooh, tmi!!!!)
Y - Your Favorite Food? I have to choose only one?!! I don't think I can - ice cream & chocolate
Z - Zodiac Sign? virgo

Glad to be back at the gym - I have my boxacise class tomorrow - I LOVE that class. It took me about 3 months before I could hit that damn speedball properly, I'm so uncoordinated! But now it's a class I don't miss for anything. So am looking forward to getting back into it tomorrow.

Did 45 min of cardio today. Geez I get bored sometimes though. Am thinking I will probably make my schedule like this:

Monday - PT
Tuesday - day off
Wed - Spin
Thurs - weights
Friday - Box

I'm going to have a chat to Drew after the class tomorrow and talk to him about maybe doing a few fitness and strength tests for my PT on Monday - I want these next 12 weeks to be about change, not just about losing weight, but getting stronger and fitter and faster. I want to be able to measure and see my progress - it'll help keep me motivated, rather than just saying "yeah, I know I'm stronger" - so vague. I want to be able to say "12 weeks ago I could only hold a prone position for xyz, now I can hold it for xxx" . Does that make sense?

My legs ache tonight. Not a muscle sore ache, but just a tired ache. My knees are sore - I knew the minute I started running to the treadmill that they would be. I need to check out our private health insurance and see if knee surgery is covered, if it is, I'm definately going to investigate what might be wrong with them ... they click all the time - Drew says they sound like a 60 year olds knees! Any time I do squats, lunges, climb stairs, they click away!

Am really enjoying the recipes in the CSIRO book - they're really yummy.

S

Hi ho, hi ho, it's off to the gym I go

Today is the first day I've been able to go to the gym since the 20th of December. They closed the kid's club over Christmas and is open again today. So without someone to look after the kids I couldn't go. If I was 100% truthful I could have gone on other days they were open if I'd got out of bed early enough and left the kids with A in the morning ... but I am so not a morning person! LOL So instead of beating myself up over it I just accepted that I wouldn't be able to go again until today.

Plan to do a good cardio session today and then again tomorrow - I am dreading my PT on Moday - Drew is going to absolutely make me pay for being such a lazy slob over Christmas. I'll feel it for a week I'm sure.

Looking forward to getting in there today and blowing out some cobwebs though.

S

A new year, a new me

Yeah, I know I know ... everyone starts the new year with a goal to loose weight ...

For the past 6 months I've been a member of a local gym- and have actually been going - seriously too - I've been going at least 3 times most weeks, only not going when I was sick. I even scaled back on social committments to make sure I was at the gym as many mornings as I could be without going insane! I've even been doing Personal Training (PT) sessions and had intentions to loose weight ... but of course, that didn't happen.

Towards the end of the year I started to dispair at my hopelessness and how pathetic I was feeling. I mean, who goes to the gym for 6 mths and doesn't lose a single kilo? Not surprising as I didn't really change my eating habits for the better and made all sorts of excuses for myself ("but I can eat more because I'm burning more energy" was the favourite!).

I think before now it was all for other people. Towards Christmas I came to this realisation: I didn't really want to lose weight. So now, it's for me - no one else. I want to feel comfortable, healthy, sexy and happy.

I have 12 weeks left of my gym membership - I have 11 PTs left. So I have 12 weeks to prove to myself that I CAN DO THIS.

Yesterday I started my better eating plan. 'A' got me the CSIRO2 book for Christmas and it has some really yummy recipes in it. I'm doing a mix of the CSIRO plan and a bit of WW - I hope the combination works! I just don't understand why you have to have the oil and a few other things. Will have to check out their website - they have some good downloadable trackers etc ...

Anyway, so so far so good. I'm not really getting hungry, so I suppose that's good. It seems a lot of meat though, but I like meat so I can handle that!

I got on the scales on Tuesday morning and was 80.8kg - at my heaviest before M was born I was 81kg - so that was depressing.

So here's to new year's resolutions, and change for the better.

I'm not sure who will read this - words of encouragement will be welcomed!

S

A pic of me - taken earlier this year - but I don't really look that different ...